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GRIEF IS HEALTHY

In exploring this new found sense of vulnerability, I’ve been getting to know myself much more deeply than I ever have before.

One of the emotions that is front mind for me at the moment is grief. I’ve learned it can take many more shapes than maybe we’d typically associate with grief. Grieving the loss of a family member or close friend is common. What about grieving the way life used to be for yourself, a week ago, a month ago? A home you used have. A car you sold. Yes, you can grieve about the loss of attachment to a state of mind. Of a comfort.

I’ve been coming to terms with several unique layers of grief that I’m managing, but this is one in particular I’d like to share about.

A month ago I shared a video where I mentioned the end of a long term relationship. My ex partner asked to keep my dog.

While we haven’t had the final conversation yet, I’ve made peace with the reality that Vino mattered as much to her as he did to me. He’s a ray of light that provided each of us a path of compassion without judgement in our darkest times, and that he can be of better service to her now, like he was for me a year ago.

Andrew Wallner